I mourn my friend, who was like a little sister to me, in my own private way, especially in my dreams, and I know she understands everything about how I feel about her and the time we spent on Earth together.
Sometimes the people who make a show of themselves after a tragedy have the least amount of real grief. Vampires crave energy and usually gravitate towards it wherever it is.
My mother will be in the front row of any funeral/memorial service because her vampiric nature is attracted to sources of strong emotional energy. If there is an opportunity to share something she wrote about the person she will gladly take the stage, and you can bet that her "eulogy" will have some kind words in it about herself as well as for the deceased. Listen for it. Her valium-tainted eulogy at my Grandmother's funeral was long and filled with mentions of her illustrious softball & photography careers.
My grandmother died about 6 years after my mom started counting her inheritance. When my mom was visiting me in Portland in 2011, she found out my grandmother had taken a bad fall and broke her hip. The narcissist, with no social awareness of herself, started immediately talking about how that's when elderly people usually die, after a fall. I said "No she's going to be OK!" I was trying to argue she would be fine and my mother keeps CORRECTING me, telling me, NO, this is when elderly people take a turn for the worst, after a fall! Instead of having a positive optimistic hoping for the best attitude, she was ARGUING with me that I WAS WRONG to be hopeful for a positive outcome! Not normal. Later that day, not able to contain herself, my mother says: "You know what I'm worried about?" and then says something about her brother taking all of the inheritance.
Her mood was so noticeably lifted by the "bad news" that she continued to do her normal activities, going to concerts, etc...with extra pep in her step. I felt the same high energy emanating from her as the many times that she had called me to let me know immediately about the death of some friend of a friend who she barely knew and I never met. She couldn't wait to tell me like it was the "latest gossip." A normal person understands it's weird to spread news of a tragedy to people who have absolutely no connection to the person who died. Let me know about my friend, yes. Let me know about my cat, yes. But call to tell me about a friend of an Elephant Revival band member who I never met? Weird.
Following my Grandmother's death, I had 3 vivid dreams that my Grandmother died while my mother and other members of my family told her in a slow NPR tone to just give up. Maybe it was because, before she died she was living in a filthy grey gardens mansion that wreaked of cat piss and was filled with flees. I know because I visited with my two toddlers and the stench was so bad I thought I wouldn't be able to handle it and my kids got bitten all over by flees.
But then after my Grandmother died, they got that mansion cleaned up so fast so that it could be SOLD it would make your head spin. I found the Zillow listing by accident & I was shocked that the house had already been sold fewer than 6 months after her death and the photos of it were so clean & the piano that my Grandma wanted Siobhán to have was still in it. They obviously called a maid service since Dumonds don't clean. But why wasn't the maid service called while my Grandmother was still alive so that she didn't have to live in such filth during her final days?
Because unlike me, they weren't rooting for my Grandmother to reach 100 and beyond. I remember the weird looks I got at my Grandma's birthday party when I told her what I had just learned about biological immortality. My Grandma just beat cancer and she was in her 80s. I told her: "Your cells aren't dying anymore! You're no longer aging!" (which is true, look it up) My Grandma was interested but everyone else at the table just yawned like, we don't care. It even came out of my Grandmother's OWN MOUTH "Everyone thought I was a goner after my fall" SHE SAID THAT! It was so sad, I told her "I didn't think that!!!"
I could get into the psychopathically odd behavior around my Aunt's death, but I'll just save that.
Obviously my mother is the last person I would want to mourn a loved one's death with, to say the least. And the rest of you all social distancing lockdown masking Big Pharma sellout fake hippie whores can go fuck yourselves as well. I have 2020 vision.
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